I feel so different these days. So different that it's hard to put into words. Thinking anything is possible to Knowing anything is possible is one helluva feeling.
I shouldn't have left home at such an early age. I should have taken some time to figure out what I really wanted to do with my life, and experienced living/freedom until I figured it out. But I didn't. I immediately jumped into adulthood {feet first}. All I knew is that I had to work to make money to take care of myself. I began to live a structured work life of 52 weeks with a few days of "vacation" in between, and weekends. I would sit at those desks and my head would be in the clouds. For years, .... day dreaming and fantasizing of a life I thought was unattainable.
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| Airbnb house in Norcross, GA with 2 roommates 10.6.17 |
It took me to make an immediate and drastic change in Sept 2017. I should have documented the journey, but I remember it vividly. From how I felt when I got the call, from the feeling I had as I walked into the manager's office and told her I was resigning.. from walking out the door, knowing I would never be back, from crying as I loaded my things in my car, from breaking all the way down as I hugged my dogs goodbye, from crossing the Mississippi bridge, from walking into orientation being completely alone and overwhelmed by it all, from the first few days of doubt, homesick, tears, fear, alone (yes all of it), from the following week of gradually realizing that I was going to be ok, from figuring everything out as I went, from the assignment ending on 10/19, from enjoying the rest of the weekend in GA until I drove back to TX on 10/22. From being on the road for 12 hours and acknowledging and congratulating myself of what I had just overcome and not knowing what was going to happen in the future but being ok with it all. From getting back home, and wanting to leave again lol, from getting
acclimated to life without working, from taking a spontaneous trip to vegas, from waking up each day and not having to rush to be somewhere. from experiencing freedom from corporate America. Through it all, I now know what I know and I feel grateful and highly favored. A higher power has revealed to me another way of life. I just had to get out of my own way and doubts.
