3:30 am

I've been waking up at 3:30am for some reason.  Most people are asleep.  The night is so still and peaceful around this time..  Just the welcoming sound of the wind.  I grab my phone and surf the net, check messages, etc.  Anything to keep my mind distracted or from going in a direction it doesn't need to go to.  There's a tree outside my window, so whenever the wind blows, the leaves of the tree makes this rustling sound.  Very comforting. In these moments, I am numb.  Numb to pain, the past, and the present.  Being numb is not a bad thing, in my opinion.  I welcome it.